I WONDER, WHAT IF?

Evening Lovely's,

Here I am in my loft type of room. Lit up my Yankee Christmas collection candles, yes I know Don't judge.

The thing is they last so freaking' long, which is a good thing too considering what price you're paying for them. Anyhow, I'm sitting comfortably in my fancy designer armchair thinking

What if? or What I want to become?

If I would do This or That... Choosing one option over another. Perfecting my healthy lifestyle I cut up some Gala apples in a small bowl, placing them gracefully next to my MacBook so I can keep myself on track, without craving some "BAD" snacks.

I'm wearing my Cashmere loungewear & I really love to wear them all day, every day. There something magical about Cashmere, I cant describe. Thinking and analysing my past and also my past work in the beauty industry, I have come to inclusion that I want to have it all, rock it all, own it all. And I'm not a shame of that. I want to live the most prestigious Life ever. If we work hard why not to enjoy it as well, Our hard earned pennies.

I never thought "ME" as a writer but I have to admit I really do like to have my little corner for writing. I'm not the best writer of them all, but I enjoy it. The sound of the keyboard when my fingers are typing, and I'm quite quick with it as well. Like playing the piano, aaa I do miss my piano tho. I believe everything takes time. If you take time to do it more slowly but perfectly, You will get the best result at the end.

Sometimes my mind wonders around..dreaming...

If I'm thinking about more mature ladies in their Victorian style apartments with high sealing, I can imagine them having a nice cup of tea, reading good classic book or newspaper, holding it gently with their delicate hands, armoured with finest pearl bracelets. That lady has it all and done it all. But.. has she? Has she done the simplest things, had she just walked to the Street food market on Sundays and tasted the most delicious delights from local chefs? Let's leave The Ritz behind us for a sec. Shall we...Has she run barefoot on the field after a summer rain, hugging tightly her other half. Or has she walked freely on the street without any attention or paparazzi? Even She, who thinks she has it all, She don't. For some its freedom for some, it can be the true love.

Question is, do we admit this to ourselves, and are we truly happy. What is happiness, well I think its combination of freedom, love and Laugh? They say if you laugh from a bottom of your heart it helps to release a stress. And the love we all know, and freedom is to be your true self, with independence and own choices.

I love to imagine or make up those types of stories and wondering If I will be like that. That's the questions. But I believe that the future is only in our own hands. So make it or break it. Whats all the fuss here You think. I don't have any clue either, but what I do know is I'm thinking about my future all the time. And without dreaming how do we know what we want? Does it make any sense? Meanwhile, let's not forget to enjoy the moment and as I say "go with a Flow.

xoxo Carø

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